你为什么这样对我? Why are you doing this to me?
我解释不了 I can't explain it.
你解释不了 你解释不了 You can't explain it. You can't explain it.
你可以解释 你也要解释 You can explain it. You will explain it.
不 我不能 真的 No. I can't. Really.
意外才发生不久 你怎么能做出这种事? How could you do this so soon after the accident?
那不是意外 凯瑟琳 是他有意的 It wasn't an accident, Catherine. It was on purpose.
还有 这种过度依赖简直让人窒息 And besides, this over reliance has been suffocating.
你在那之后多久开始和她交往的? How soon after did you start seeing her?
真是个荒谬的问题 That's a ridiculous question.
那么你回答啊 Well, answer it.
在那之前就开始了 Before.
之前 Before.
之前? Before?
我们... 我们能不能放松一点? Can we... can we please just relax?
-不 你别说什么我们能不能... -我在求你 - No, we can't please just. - I'm pleading with you here.
行了 你没资格求我 你这混蛋 Well, you don't get any pleas, you piece of shit.
因为我恨你 'Cause I hate you.
那么分手应该不会太痛苦 So this shouldn't be too painful.
不 应该不会 应该不会太痛苦 No. It shouldn't. It shouldn't be too painful.
因为这只是所有事之外的另一件事 Because it's just one more thing on top of everything else.
不过是另一件事罢了 Just one more thing.
你太小题大作了 You're being dramatic.
我爸爸是我的一切 我的家庭是我的一切 My father was my life, and my family was my life.
你曾经是两者中的一部分 And then you were a part of both.
而现在 现在我恨你 And now, now I hate you.
现在我恨透了你 你这阴险的小人 Now I hate you, you dishonest snake.
我不是要你理解我 I'm not looking for you to understand me here.
好啊 因为绝对不可能! Well, good. Because there's no chance of that happening!
我只是觉得你不该这样拿我出气 I just think that you've been misdirecting a lot of anger towards me
过去几个月一直如此 我再也忍不下去了 The past few months and I can't take it anymore.
噢! 噢 那敢情好 Oh! Oh, good for you.
我很高兴... 我很高兴你终于弄明白了 很好 I'm glad that's... I'm glad that you figured that out. Good.
你感觉好些了吗? 很好 You feel better? Good.
你不觉得我们之间过度的相互依赖 Don't you think we've got to the place
已经到了病态的地步了吗? Where we rely on each other too much for it to be healthy?
别试着... 去辩解 好像这样的努力 Do not try to... to justify this as some sort of effort
能够帮助我或者拯救我 好像你该死的在帮我什么忙一样 To help me or save me like you're doing me a fuckin' favor.
好像我应该谢谢你一样 Like I should thank you.
事实就是这样 That's not untrue.
是啊 就是这样 No, it's not untrue.
你还是走吧 Just go.
走啊 快走 Just go. Just go.
我不希望你看到我这样子 I don't want you to see me like this.
走吧 求你了 让我一个人待着 Go. Please, just leave me alone.
求你了 让我一个人待着 求你了 Please, just leave me alone. Please.
走啊! Go!
《尘世女王》
中字&校对 by Lycidas@豆瓣
[周六]
你怎么在走了? Why are you walking?
我不想等 I didn't feel like waiting.
到那儿还有大概2英里呢 It's like 2 miles to the house.
好吧 Okay.
凯瑟琳 Catherine.
嗨 Hey.
谢谢你让我有地方可逃 Thanks for the exile.
这里就是为此存在的啊 That's what this place is here for.
公寓怎么说? What's happening with the apartment?
噢 我在这里的时候他会搬出去 Oh, he's moving out while I'm here.
所以... 就这样吧 So... that is it.
看起来好极了 Looks great.
-你一直住的房间准备好了 -哦 - Your regular room awaits. - Oh.
一切似乎都距离我那么近 Everything feels so close to me.
就像世间的好与坏 Like the good and the bad.
不过现在事情也并没有那么糟 Things aren't so bad right now though.
没有 No.
你说得太对了 维吉妮娅 You're absolutely right, Virginia.
事情更糟了 They're worse.
更加 更加 糟糕了 They're much, much worse.
好了 反正你现在也不能做什么... Well, there's nothing you can do about that now, so...
你还不如... You might as well...
他一定受了很多苦 He must have really suffered.
你知道的 我爸爸 You know, my father.
他受尽了痛苦折磨 He was afflicted.
别人都说抑郁是一种病 People say that depression is a sickness
但我从来没这么想过 But I never thought of it that way.
我一直觉得这只是他的某个麻烦... I always just thought of it as one of his problems...
就像工作或金钱那样的麻烦 你明白的 Just like work or money are problems, you know.
现在他走了 我满脑子都在想这件事 Now that he's gone, it's all I can think about.
噢 见鬼 Oh, fucker.
啊 该死! Unh. Dammit!
-为您准备的 -谢谢 - Por vous. - Thank you.
见鬼 你们恶心得我要吐了 Goddammit, you're gonna make me throw up.
男人就不能为他独一无二的女士准备一杯咖啡吗? Can't a guy fix a cup of java for his special lady?
恶 你们要是分手了怎么办? Yuck. What would happen if you broke up?
那她就得自己做咖啡了 Then she'd have to fix her own coffee.
我没在开玩笑 I'm not joking.
你们这种互相依存简直病态 You seem cripplingly codependent.
不 我们没有 No, we don't.
我们? 你刚说... 你为什么要说"我们"？ We? You just said... Why did you say "we"?
我说的是你 I'm talking about you.
这种情况下没有"我们" There's no "we" in this scenario.
你怎么跟Smeagol一样 [魔戒人物Gollum原名 常以we自称] You sound like Smeagol.
吉妮 Ginny.
你怎么这么消极呢? Why so negative?
只有我最亲密的朋友才叫我吉妮 Only my closest friends call me Ginny.
维吉妮娅 你为什么总这么消极? Virginia, why so negative?
我不知道 詹姆斯 I don't know, James.
-嘿 你说过的 记得吗? -我记得 是的 - Hey, you said, remember? - I remember, yeah.
我们将度过一个美好的早晨 We're gonna have a nice morning.
你没法强迫某人度过一个美好的早晨 You can't force someone to have a nice morning.
-你一定可以的 -是啊 你可以的 - Well, sure you can. - Yes, you can.
我没和你说话 I wasn't speaking to you.
你现在和我说话了啊 Well, now you're speaking to me.
[周日]
-嗨 -嗨 - Hey. - Hey.
我以为你还睡着 我出去了 I thought you were asleep. I went out.
-我睡不着 -这里很安静啊 - I couldn't sleep. - It's so quiet here.
正是这个原因 Exactly.
看起来不错 That looks good.
-我已经生疏了 -什么? - I'm rusty. - What?
我说 "我已经生疏了" I said, "I'm rusty."
噢 我以为你说了什么别的 Oh. I thought you said something else.
这些吃的哪里来的? Where did you get these?
我去了商店 I went to the store.
怎么 你以为都是我带来的吗? So what, did you think I brought all of that with me?
商店离这里大概有4英里 The store is like 4 miles.
是啊 我这么走着走着就到了 Well, I just started walking and then I was there.
别这样说 Please don't say that.
因为我不会再忍受你那样对待我 这就是原因 Because I won't stand to be treated by you That way anymore, that's why.
我根本不在意! I don't care about that!
这对我们两人都是侮辱! And that is insulting to the both of us.
我得挂了 她在看着 I have to go, she's watching.
别问 Don't ask.
是詹姆斯吗? Was that James?
你那里的人不懂"别问"是什么意思吗? Does "don't ask" mean something different where you're from?
我们明明从同一个地方来的 We're from the same place.
我真希望不是 I'd really rather not.
我不确定你是不是还在里面 I wasn't sure if you were still in here.
我还能在哪儿? Where else would I be?
你想出去走走什么的吗? You wanna go for a walk or something?
外面天气不错 It's nice out.
我的脸好疼 My face hurts.
什么意思? How do you mean?
你现在能别逼着我说话吗? Can you please not make me talk right now?
我很抱歉 I'm sorry.
你在这里面做什么? What are you doing in here?
你是什么意思? What do you mean?
你在做什么? 我是说 实际上 What are you doing? Like, actually.
这里面黑漆漆的 It's all dark in here.
我在躲 I'm hiding.
躲什么? From what?
像这里一样的地方离城市那么近 It drives me crazy that places like this
简直让我抓狂 Are so close to the city.
像这里一样的地方? Places like this?
是啊 你懂的 在这里宁静不再是传说 Yeah, you know, where tranquility isn't just a myth.
你随时可以到这里来 反正我家人不住了 You can come here any time my family isn't using it.
什么时候都可以吗 吉妮? Any time, Ginny?
劳动节 阵亡将士纪念日 国庆节 都可以吗? Labor Day, Memorial Day, Fourth of July?
我告诉过你别叫我吉妮 I told you not to call me Ginny.
他只是在开玩笑 He's joking.
好吧 可有些玩笑让我很不爽 Well, some jokes make me feel uncomfortable.
-这是我的错吗? -不 不算是 - This is my fault? - No, not really.
我们能别这样吗 拜托? Can we not do this, please?
我以为我们是来这里放松的 至少我这么觉得 I thought we came here to relax, or at least I did.
我不知道你们俩在搞什么鬼 I don't know about what you two are doing.
好吧 不管放松或者度假 Well, relaxing or having a vacation
都意味着某个时候会结束 Would imply that at some point it might end.
因此你无法真正远离一切 So you can't really get away from it all
你如果只想这样 那么 If that's all you are doing, you know.
你就是个扫兴的废物 Then you're just a bum.
你是个废物吗 吉妮? Are you a bum, Ginny?
你这么说真是既蠢又差劲 What a stupid, shitty thing to say.
如果要回去的话 我完全没问题 I don't care at all about going back.
事实上 我现在想想 还不如不来呢 And in fact, now that I think about it, I'd just as soon not.
没错 斯嗷-扫 西应-兴 扫兴 Right. B-U-M, bum.
管好你自己的事吧 殿下 Just mind your own business, Your Majesty.
好了 嗯... Okay, um...
你要去哪里? Where are you going?
我只是想 嗯... I'm just gonna, uh...
给你们两个一点空间 Give you two a little space.
没必要 我们好得很 Not necessary. We're fine.
我还是要走开一下 I'm still going to just excuse myself.
-求你别走 -是啊 求求你别走 - Please don't. - Yeah, please don't.
谢谢你了 你可真是成熟啊 Thank you. That was very mature.
像你这样每时每刻都知晓一切 What's it like having all the answers
是种什么样的感觉? All the time to everything?
一定非常奢侈 It must be such a luxury.
是啊 简直无法衡量 It is. Immeasurably.
请你别这样 Please don't do this.
我是说 这并不是世界末日 I mean, it's not the end of the world
但你是不是至少可以承认 But could you at least acknowledge
你一直都在琢磨 That you never stopped to think about
我也许想从这次旅行中得到什么? What I might have wanted from this trip?
你是说我是个差劲的朋友吗? Are you calling me a lousy friend?
你说你是个差劲的朋友吗? Are you saying you're a lousy friend?
我不知道你想要我说什么 I don't know what you want me to say.
我爱你超过一切 你这蠢货 I love you more than anything, you stupid brat.
好啊 我们不如交换一下立场 看到时感觉如何 Well, we should trade places. See how we feel then.
噢 抱歉 Oh, sorry.
没关系 Uh, it's okay.
各位 这是里奇 Guys, this is Rich.
他父母的房子在隔壁 His parents have a place next door.
-嗨 -嗨 里奇 我是詹姆斯 - Hey. - Hey, Rich, I'm James.
见到你很高兴 Nice to meet you.
午饭怎么样? How was lunch?
不错 Fine.
所以你住在隔壁吗 里奇? So you live next door, Rich?
是啊 Yeah.
你住这房子多久了? How long you had the place?
噢 很久 很久了 Oh, a long time. Long time.
是啊 比我爸妈还早 Yeah, before my folks.
-想喝啤酒吗? -噢 当然了 嘿 谢谢 - You want a beer? - Oh, sure. Hey, thanks.
不 我们应该... 我们要... 我们该走了 Well, no, we should... We'll... we should go.
-别走 一起玩会儿啊 说真的 -我们一起玩吧 - No, hang out. Seriously. - Let's hang out.
来吧 坐 Come on. Have a seat.
我们一起喝一杯 Let's have a drink.
我都记不得上次什么时候度假的了 I don't know when the last time We took a vacation was.
我出差很多 所以... Well, I travel a lot with work, so...
你是做什么工作的 凯瑟琳? What do you do, Catherine?
我打理父亲的事务 I manage my father's business.
听起来 挺可疑的 是不是? That sounds, like, suspicious, right?
凯瑟琳的父亲是一个杰出的纽约大艺术家 Catherine's father is a prominent New York artiste.
噢 我听说过他吗? Oh. Have I heard of him?
我觉得很可能没有 I highly doubt it.
他造了联合广场的那座巨型雕塑 He built that giant sculpture in Union Square.
噢 那个 呃 圆球 Oh, the, uh, Perisphere.
嗯... Hmm...
嗯什么? 我还是知道点事的好吧 Hmm. What? I know some shit.
真难得 我可没想到 I'm impressed. Didn't expect it.
那你具体什么? 监控那个圆球? So what do you do? You monitor the Perisphere?
给它抛光? Polish the Perisphere?
-我打理他的日常事务 -文书工作罢了 - I manage his affairs. - Clerical work.
不 不是的 No, it's not.
我是说 不完全是文书工作 I mean, it's not paperwork.
不是吗? It's not?
那为什么你老是被纸割伤? Why do you always have those paper cuts?
这是有意义的工作 It's responsible work.
无聊透顶 It's dull.
你知道吗 凯瑟琳其实是个伟大的艺术家 See, Catherine is this great artist.
但她躲在爸爸的阴影里 But she's hiding in her father's shadow
不敢独自出来闯荡 Afraid to break out on her own.
谢谢你 但这是很有意义的工作 Thank you, but it is responsible work
我很享受做这份工作 And I very much enjoy doing it.
她基本上就是他的助理 She's basically his assistant.
我不觉得做当世伟大艺术家的助理 Well, I don't see that there's anything wrong
有什么不妥的 With being an assistant to one of our great living artists.
你击败了多少人 And how many people did you beat out
才得到这个了不起的职位的? To win that great position?
我可以告诉你 但我不认为你能够理解 I would tell you, but I don't think you would understand
工作面试的概念 The concept of a job interview.
老天爷 你简直要笑死我了 My god, you're killing me.
请你别这样跟我说话 Please don't talk to me like that.
怎样啊? Like what?
好像你比我和这里所有人都高一等 Like you're superior to me or any of us.
为什么不呢? Why not?
因为这样很蠢 很无趣 Um, because it's dull. It's uninteresting.
我们不能都活在魔法幻想世界 Well, we all can't live in a magical fantasy land.
不过 我觉得你如果好好利用想象力 Well, I think if you use your imagination
就能过一段相当不错的时光 You can have a pretty good time.
我觉得这是极度无知和幼稚的说辞 I think that is an incredibly ignorant And childish thing to say.
好吧 Okay.
我不知道 Well, I don't know.
我只是觉得我没有做这种蠢事的天赋 I just don't think I was built for that kind of nonsense.
我觉得我是专为 I think I was made to be
成为当代贵族阶层一员而存在的 A member of the modern aristocracy.
这又是什么意思? What does that mean?
嗯... 因为我拥有这样漂亮的房子 Hmm... because I have this great house.
这是你父母的房子 It's your parents' house.
他们只是偶尔让你用用而已 Which they let you use occasionally.
又不是你挣来的 别一副你有资格拥有的样子 You didn't earn it, so don't act like you're entitled to it.
你为什么这样咄咄逼人? Why are you being so confrontational?
我只是比较现实罢了 I'm just being realistic.
我是认真的 我只想过段开心的日子 放松一下 I'm serious. I just wanna have a nice time and relax.
不然呢? 每隔一天放松一次? As opposed to what? Relaxing every other day of your life?
我并没有每天都在放松! I don't relax every day!
我很遗憾你遇到了一件不好的事 I'm sorry you had one bad thing
可那大概是三个月前了吧 Happen to you, like, 3 months ago.
别再假装这是某种能让你 Don't pretend that this is some break
逃离乏味繁重的存在本身的假期了 From a tedious and stressful existence.
好吧 你知道吗? 别担心我了 Okay, you know what? Don't worry about me.
-我没有 -别想我的事了 - I'm not. - Don't think about me.
别管了 拜托你 Just forget it. Please.
Cat 走吧 Cat, come on.
噢 看看谁又有话说了 Oh, look who has something to say.
现在你倒想来插一脚了? Now you wanna get involved?
不 只是... 我们累了 No, just... we're tired.
我们没有累 We are not tired.
别说我们 我不累 Don't say we. I'm not tired.
只是因为你累 并不意味着我也累了 Just because you're tired doesn't mean that I'm tired.
这就对了 That's the spirit.
好吧 可是我已经很累了 所以... Well, I'm pretty tired, so...
里奇累了 Rich is tired.
是啊 里奇累了 我要走了 Yeah, Rich is tired. I'm gonna go.
-别走 里奇 -是啊 别走 里奇 - Don't go, Rich. - Yeah, don't go, Rich.
好了 我该回家了 我们明天见 Yeah, I should get home. I'll see you tomorrow.
-见到你很高兴 里奇 -我送你出去 - It's great to meet you, Rich. - I'll walk you out.
见到你很高兴 伙计 Nice to meet you, dude.
见到你很高兴 K 别激动 Nice to meet you, K, take it easy.
刚才的事我很抱歉 I'm sorry about that.
我以为他们整晚都不在 I thought they were gonna be gone all night.
没关系 我很有兴趣 That's fine. I'm interested.
怎么会? How so?
嗯 亲眼见见她 Uh, to meet her.
听你说了她那么多之后 After hearing you talk about her.
你觉得我是个糟糕的朋友 You think I'm a horrible friend.
啊 我不知道是不是能回答这个问题 Uh, I don't know that I can really answer that.
你一直对我非常好 You're always very sweet to me.
你从不要求我什么 You ask so little of me.
你确定不想进来吗? Uh, you sure you don't want to come in?
我该回去了 I should get back.
好吧 这里的大门永远对你敞开 Alright, well, door's always open.
-别管了 -我不想不管 - Just leave them. - I don't want to leave them.
为什么? Why?
因为除了我之外没人会来清理了 Because no one else is gonna clean this up but me.
你能不能让我一个人待会儿? Will you leave me alone?
那时候是秋天 十月份 It was autumn, October.
我们会散很久的步 And we would just take long walks and...
叫外卖 在我公寓看碟 Get takeout and watch videos at my apartment.
我当时住在那个地下室公寓 I had that basement apartment at the time
一进去之后一点光线都没有 So once you were inside no light could get in
你可以永远看不到太阳升起 So you could just never even see when the sun came up.
我很喜欢那个公寓 I loved that apartment.
但过了一段... But then after a few...
六个星期 他和他女朋友 6 weeks, him and his girlfriend
又复合了 Started to get back together
然后就不再理我 And he just shut me out.
我们还有课在一起 所以互相还是很礼貌 但 你知道 We had class together, so we were polite, but, you know,
这感觉真是太差劲了 It was really shitty.
让我非常伤心 And that really broke my heart
感觉像是他没有选择我 'Cause it felt like he didn't choose me, you know.
然后 又过了一两年 也许更久 Um, so then, a couple of years go by, maybe longer.
差不多有两年半 Maybe it was more like two and a half.
突然之间 我收到了一封意料之外的信 And all of a sudden, out of the blue, I get this letter.
一封真正的信 写在纸上 Like, an actual letter, written on paper.
用笔写的 而且那么亲切 With a pen, and it was so sweet
带点抱歉的意味 And it was sort of apologetic
但并不明显 也不让人厌烦 But not overtly or in an annoying way and...
总之 我同意见他一面 那天我加班到很晚 Anyways, I agreed to meet him after work late one night.
当时是十二月 只有零下6度 It was December. It was, like, 20 degrees out.
我就站在外面 And I was standing outside.
戴着那顶白色针织帽 I had that white knit cap on
我以前一直戴的那顶 That I used to wear all the time.
他出来了 看起来和以前一模一样 And he came out, and he just looked exactly the same.
他说我看起来也和以前一样 And he said that I looked the same too.
但他肯定没说实话 But that can't be true because
因为我以前一直留着很短的金发 I had really short blonde hair at the time.
然后 我们去了酒吧 喝了几杯 And, um, we went to a bar, and we had a few drinks
他告诉我他的恋爱如何无可避免地结束了 And he told me about how, of course His relationship inevitably ended
毕竟原本就该如此 As it was meant to.
他说他无法停止想我 And... and he just couldn't stop thinking about me
在我自己都还没意识到之前 And before I even knew it
就已经原谅了他 两年来我一直恨他 I was forgiving him for 2 years of resentment
恨他没有选择我 而我居然原谅了他 For not choosing me, I was forgiving him.
他的公寓就在附近 And his apartment was nearby
所以我们步行过去 我问他 So we were walking there and I asked
能否借用一下洗手间 If I could use the bathroom
我知道这招数听起来很廉价 Which I know sounds like a really cheap move
但我非去那里不可 But I really did have to go.
我真的只想要进去那里 I really did think I was just gonna go in there
然后离开 但里面实在太温暖了 And then leave and, but then it was really warm inside
而外面那么冷 所以我们就 那样 And it was so cold outside, and so we just, like,
聊了起来 然后亲吻 Ended up talking, and then kissing
然后 你知道 睡着了一小会儿 And, you know, we just fell asleep there for a while.
就这样 我们整个假期都在一起 And so we were together then through the holidays.
他到我家来 我也见了他的父母 And he came to my house and I met his parents
一切都那么顺利 And it was going really well.
感觉我们终于要得到 And it just felt like we were
之前不曾拥有的一切 Finally getting what we didn't get
你知道 In the first place, you know.
这些东西如此真实 And something that was so real.
如此重要 And it felt so important.
然后几个... 几个月过去了 Then a few mo... months passed and, um,
他又开始变得冷淡 He started to get distant again.
而我还在计划周末旅行 And I was planning weekend trips
介绍朋友给他认识 And introducing him to my friends
试着让他真正成为我生活的一部分 And just trying to really integrate him into my life.
之后我意识到 两三天过去了 And then I realized, you know, 2 or 3 days were passing
他都没和我联系 Where I wasn't hearing from him and...
我一下就明白他又开始了 And it hit me that he was doing it again.
就像是... 他又在 He was just... he was doing
重复之前做过的一模一样的事 The exact same thing that he did before
而我... 是我太蠢了 And... and I was too stupid to realize it
没有在一切为时已晚之前看清楚 Before it was too late.
我知道我的问题 我的这个问题 And I knew that my problem, this problem that I have
它让我一次又一次回到同样的位置 This issue that just keeps landing me in the same place.
大概三年后 我又到了这里 Almost 3 years later, and here I was
到了之前同样的境地 因为... In the exact same place was because I was...
比起他本该有的改变 More impressed with this note
我却更容易被 This handwritten note, than I was
一张手写便条打动 With his supposed changes in personality.
你知道 我看到这样的... You know, I saw this...
这样的努力 这样... This effort, this...
对他感情存在的真切表示 This textile representation of his feelings
我就 就认为这是真实的 但其实并非如此 And I, I thought it was something real when it wasn't.
只是老一套无聊的蠢把戏 It was just trite and cliche and fatuous.
但感觉又是真的 But I mean it was real.
那是真实存在的一张纸 It was this real piece of paper.
我都羞于承认 Which I'm ashamed to admit
自己到哪里都带着它 I carried around to, like,
之后搬了三个公寓都还带着 3 apartments after that.
但一切都不是真的 But it wasn't real.
只是完完全全的空洞 It just was something that was completely empty...
和虚无 And hollow.
这让我意识到 And it just made me realize
我始终置身于一个 That I am just in this
永不休止的循环中 一次次失败 Self-perpetuating cycle of defeat.
却无法逃离 因为我就是无法逃离 Where I can't get out of it because I can't get out of it
因为我无法摆脱它 Because I can't get out of it.
这简直... It's...
人性之中最糟糕的倾向之一 It's one of the worst tendencies of human nature
就是总把他人想得太好 To assume the best of others.
你记得Chad吗? You remember Chad?
所以我们以前是朋友 是吧? So we were friends, right?
不管朋友这个词在中学是什么意思 Whatever that means in middle school.
他是我的初吻 He was my first kiss.
那么多年 我们都在同一个朋友圈 Over the years, we were in the same friend group
我觉得他甚至不知道他是我的初吻 And I don't think he ever knew he was my first kiss
总之 我们从没谈起过这个 Anyway, we never talked about it.
但我得说... But I'd say...
整个高中直到毕业 再到大学 Throughout high school, graduation, college
他一直是我人生中二十个最好的朋友之一 He was like top 20 all-time good friends.
大学之后 不知道什么原因 And then after college, for whatever reason
我们见面的机会突然变多了 We started seeing a lot of one another.
我们一周出去几次 Well, we'd hang out, like, a couple times a week.
听音乐会 吃晚餐 Go to concerts, have dinner.
突然之间我们就在一起了 And then we were just suddenly together.
上床 在他家或者我家过夜 Hooking up, and spending the night At his place and mine, you know.
然后夏天来了 Then it was summer.
一切都很棒 It was great.
这根本就是典型的夏日情事 It was absolutely one of those summer things
我关于当时的所有回忆 Where all my memories of that time
都错综复杂地与他联结在一起 Are intricately connected to him.
但他当时好像要上研究生院还是法学院之类的 But he was going to grad school or law school or something.
所以 大概七月 我开始告诉他 So, around July, I start telling him, you know
我们的关系这样下去 This is going where it's going and...
不会以我和他一起去读研究生告终 it's not going to grad school with him.
他说他明白了 And he says he gets it.
但之后事情变得认真起来 But then things start to get more serious
我才开始明白 And it becomes clear to me that
他很久都没有过一段认真的感情了 He hasn't been in a serious relationship in a long time.
所以我不停地提醒他 So I keep reminding him that
我们再这么继续下去只能是死路一条 We're heading for a dead end
他说 "行了 我明白" And he says, "Yeah, I get it.
"没关系 我懂的" It's fine. I get it."
而我相信了他 And I believed him.
然后 突然间 八月就到了 And then, suddenly, it's August.
他离开之前已经开始 And before he's even gone, he's already...
谈起要我去看他的事 Talking about me coming to visit him
还有他计划 And a trip he has planned to come back in...
十月从学校回来 You know, in October.
所以... So...
我说 "不 这些都不可能" I say, "No, that's not gonna happen."
"这一切都不是真的" None of that is real."
他以为我在开玩笑 And he thinks I am joking and...
根本没听进去 Basically ignores it all.
然后他离开 So then he's gone and within
过了一两周 我开始和其他人约会 A week or two, I'm seeing somebody else
期间他还在不停打电话给我 And he is still calling all the time.
有一天 某个周六晚上 And one night, some Saturday night
我在酒吧里玩 他又打来 I'm out at a bar, and he calls
开始喋喋不休地指责我 And he's giving me the business
凌晨2点3点不该在外面 About being out at 2:00 or 3:00 in the morning
我一下就崩溃了 开始朝他大喊大叫 And I just snapped, and I am screaming at him
告诉他 他是个满脑子妄想的混蛋 and telling him he is a delusional bastard
我不敢相信他会对我说这些 And I can't believe what I am hearing
我根本不想和他有任何关系 And I wanna have nothing to do with him.
然后就这样了 So that's that.
九月到了 It's September now, and...
我直到圣诞节才有他的音讯 I don't hear from him or anything until Christmas
很显然 那时候他已经回来了 When he's back around, obviously.
后来 我们都在一个酒吧里 And so, we are all at a bar
我不知道这些事情发生的时候你在哪里 I don't know where you were during all of this.
也许你那年因为什么原因都不在吧 Maybe you were away that year for whatever reason.
总之 我们看到了对方 Anyway, we see each other and...
好像什么都没发生一样 it's as if nothing has ever happened.
他依然维持着礼貌 但我能察觉出他的怒气 He's civil, but I can tell he's seething.
而我只是看着他就很生气 And just seeing him pisses me off so much
因为我能看出他当时的状态 Because I can see now what he is
一个心存妄想的绝望的人 Which is this delusional, desperate man
老天啊 简直太没有魅力了 And goddamn it, that is so unattractive.
我想说的是... So my point is...
你可以摆脱他人的怪圈 You can get out of somebody else's cycle
但无法摆脱自己的 But you can't get out of your own.
你成了他手写纸条的受害者 You were victimized by his handwritten note
我则是他无法正视事实的牺牲品 And I was victimized by his inability to face reality.
然而... And yet...
现在我们两个都在这里 Here we both are.
可该死的他们又在哪里? Where the fuck are they?
[周一]
你是什么人? Who the hell are you?
是我 里奇 It's me. Rich.
去年见过的 From last year.
噢 对了 里奇 Oh, right. Rich.
抱歉 我不擅长记人脸和名字 Sorry, I'm not good with faces or names.
你的意思是... So, you mean like...
不擅长和人交往? People?
是啊 他们也是 Yeah, them too.
听说你爸爸的事了 Heard about your dad.
我非常遗憾 I'm really sorry.
不必 你又不认识他 Don't be. You didn't know him.
呃 但还是得说一句 Eh, still.
你为什么在这里? Why are you here?
我肯定要来和我的姑娘们说声"嗨"呀 Well, I had to say "hey" to my girls.
你说的肯定不是指我吧 Surely, you can't be referring to me when you say that.
只是想看看怎么回事 Just wanted to see what was up.
我看到吉妮的车在外面 I saw Ginny's car outside.
别叫她吉妮 Don't call her Ginny.
刚怎么了? What was that?
我什么都没听见 I didn't hear anything.
为什么那个人在这里? Why is that guy here?
谁? 里奇吗? Who? Rich?
是啊 "里奇" Yeah. "Rich."
他有时喜欢过来一起玩 He likes to hang out sometimes.
我不知道 I don't know.
谁在意呢? Who cares?
你下周有什么打算? What are you up to next week?
我完全不知道 I haven't a clue.
这样一定感觉很好吧 Mm, that must be nice.
什么? What?
自己选择只是... To choose to just...
随处闲逛 什么都不做 Hang out and do nothin'.
我并没有选择待在这里 I didn't choose to be here.
没有人会选择让自己身处这种状况 Nobody would choose to be in this situation.
我被扯进这个情形完全违背了我的意愿 I was thrust into this situation against my will.
是啊 我知道那是什么感觉 Yeah, I know how that feels.
因为这事不可能有那么复杂 Because it can't possibly be that complicated.
你就告诉他一切都好 Just tell him everything is fine.
我把所有的东西都整理好了 I left everything in order.
是的 我告诉他月底就能到 Yes, I told him it would be there by the end of the month.
我只是和他说这情形很特殊 I just told him that they were extraordinary circumstances
我不觉得需要解释 I didn't feel the need to explain it.
这是家庭事务 It's a family matter.
绝对和他们不相干 It's absolutely none of their business.
照实告诉他们 这不关任何人的事 Tell them what it is. It's nobody's business.
好了 你必须得像我现在这样说 Well, you are gonna have to say it in the way that I am saying it.
你必须用特定的方式和语气和他说 You have to speak to him in a certain way, with a certain tone.
否则 他不会听的 Otherwise, he won't listen.
然后那个新来的医生吓坏了 And then the newcomer, who's all freaked out
她不得不来给我接生 She has to cut the baby out of me...
然后我的羊水破了 And then my water broke.
嗯 你知道 我不得不先看到了它之后才有感觉 It was, um, you know, I had to see it before I felt it
因为我两腿之间毫无知觉 Because I couldn't feel between my legs.
但水像冰一样冷 But the water was ice cold, so
所以 我想试图不要太晃 好让它能出来 Yeah, I was sorta trying not to jolt and then it would come out
然后我转向她 我说 And then I turned to her, and I was like
"孩子要出来了 你得把它从我身上弄下来" "The baby's coming. You have to cut it out of me."
我牙齿都是烂的 And I had rotted out teeth.
-真的吗? -这真是... - Really? - It was...
真是绝了 A real winner.
我只是想最终能够把它 I just wanted to finally purge
完全清除出我的人生 All of that from my life.
我已经摒除了许多毫无价值的消极的人 I had already cut out so many worthless and negative people
除了厌倦和烦乱之外 他们无法给我带来任何东西 Who brought me nothing but annoyance or distraction
所以我想 为什么她会有任何不同呢? So I figured why should she be any different?
因为家人是不同的 Because family is different.
不 他们不是 No, they aren't.
没人能得到免费通行证 Nobody gets a free pass.
你这么说真是可怕 That's a horrible thing to say.
这样感觉也很可怕 我希望我不要有这种想法 It's horrible to feel. I wish I didn't feel it.
我希望我可以和一些无法建立关系的人建立关系 I wish I could have relationships with some people that I can't
但他们一旦变得无足轻重 But once they become just ciphers
或者 你知道 气力用尽 Or, you know, energy drains
或者... 或者他们成为让我烦躁或者郁闷的人 Or... or they become someone who distracts or depresses me
我没法自控地觉得 我必须和他们切断所有联系 I have to have nothing to do with them I can't help it.
你可以自控的 You can help it.
不 我不能 我试过了 我就是恨透了他们 No, I can't. I've tried. I just hate them.
我痛恨和他们在一起 我痛恨和他们说话 And I hate being around them. And I hate talking to them.
我喜欢从生活的方方面面 I love eliminating those enemies
消灭这些敌人 From every aspect of my life.
我觉得我从没听到任何成年人 I don't think I have ever heard an adult
说过"敌人"这个词 Use the word enemy.
噢 别傻了 这是唯一可用的词 Aw, don't be naive. It's the only word.
我不知道 I don't know.
我想我只是选了直接的方式 I think I'm taking the high road.
我就是这样 I do.
这实在是幼稚得很 That's just not very adult.
好吧 你晋级成功了 我爱你 Well, you made the cut. I love you.
我们得好好庆祝 Let's celebrate that.
我还真走运 Lucky me.
好了 当心...当心脚下 Yeah, watch your... Watch your step.
我不想成为一个敌人 I don't wanna be an enemy.
我给你做了色拉 I made this salad for you.
很好吃 It's good.
你该吃点 You should eat it.
谢谢 Thank you.
抱歉 我东西有点... Sorry, I kind of, uh...
太乱了 Spread out.
[周二]
那是我们唯一的合作 It was our only collaboration.
我们想一起做点什么 We wanted to do something together.
那是一幅很美的画像 It was a beautiful portrait.
而它却变得全然不同了 It just turned into something else completely.
是啊 Yeah.
它成了他死亡的画面 It became the image of his death.
所以我再也不想和它有任何关系 So I didn't want anything to do with it anymore.
那确实是幅病态的画面 It was a morbid image.
我们还以为它很好笑 We thought it was really funny.
你喜欢和他一起工作吗? Did you like working with him?
他是个天才 Yeah, he was a genius.
所以说你喜欢吗? Is that a yes?
他教会了我一切 Well, he taught me everything.
我知道所有人都说 And I know everyone said that
我得到这一切不过是靠亲属关系 Everything that I got was from nepotism
但我并不怎么在意 But I didn't really care.
我不在意 I don't care.
我总觉得他不仅是我的父亲 I just thought he was not only my father
我同时也敬仰他伟大艺术家的身份 But I admired him for being a great artist.
一个老套的 备受折磨的 A cliched, tortured
有自杀倾向的艺术家 Suicidal artist...
最终如此 Ultimately.
我想 里奇晚点会过来 I think, uh, Rich is coming by later.
唔 Hmm.
什么? What?
我根本什么都没说 I literally didn't say anything.
正是 Exactly.
-他非得过来吗? -有什么问题吗? - Does he have to come by? - What's the problem?
我需要你保持不动 I need you to stay still.
我还以为我们可以单独待着 I just thought we were gonna be alone together.
是啊 去年夏天我也是这样想的 Yeah, that's what I thought last summer.
好吧 没问题 Okay. Fine.
我喜欢里奇 I love Rich.
他非常棒 He's fascinating.
别这样 Come on.
我只是认为他配不上你 所以... Well, I just don't think he's good enough for you, so...
我想他不过和其他人一样 I think he's just like everybody else.
你什么意思? How do you mean?
到处窥探他人的生活 Just prying into people's business.
你知道 去年他连两个关于我的问题都没问 You know, last year, he didn't ask me two questions about myself
现在倒什么都想知道了 And now he just wants to know everything.
我想知道为什么 就这样 I wonder why, that's all.
他只是和你更熟了 He just knows you better.
他跟我完全不熟 He doesn't know me at all.
他很好奇 He's curious.
好奇心害死了我爸爸 Well, curiosity killed my father.
是抑郁症害死了你爸爸 Depression killed your father.
我很抱歉 你要是不能坐着不动 I'm sorry, I really can't do this
我真的没法画了 If you're not gonna sit still.
住在Frank和Sylvie家里吗? Frank and Sylvie's house?
我是他们侄女的客人 I'm their niece's guest.
-维吉妮娅 -是的 - Virginia. - Yeah.
以前来过这儿吗? Been here before?
只来过一次 去年 Just once. Last year.
他们人坏得不得了 They're terrible people.
不过 他们现在不在这儿 Well, they're not here right now.
我知道 I know.
那么多钱确实会让别人愤怒 That kind of money rubs people the wrong way.
你上次来这里是什么时候? When were you here last?
差不多去年这个时候 About the same time last year.
去年天气不错 Nice season last year.
是啊 感觉挺好的 Yeah, seemed okay.
在那里当心点 谁知道呢 Be careful in there. You never know.
谁知道什么? You never know what?
问得好 Exactly.
Uh, let's see.
Uh...
当然了 Definitely.
Aww.
-嗨 -你为什么躺在树丛里? - Hey. - Why are you in the bushes?
我在哪里? Where am I?
帮我一把 我觉得闹心 Help me. I'm suck.
我想你是要说你觉得恶心 I think you mean you're sick.
嗯哼 Mm-hmm.
过来 Come on.
噢 等一下 Oh, hold on.
给你热水 Here's your hot water.
谢谢 Thanks.
这房子不错 This is a nice place.
谢谢 这不是我的房子 Thanks. It's not mine.
我想我来这里参加过派对 I think I came to a party here once.
Ah.
去年劳动节是你办了那个 Eh, did you throw that, the "Dressed to Get Sexed" party
"穿得美有人睡"的派对吗? On Labor Day last year?
我他妈到底要告诉你多少次 How many times do I have to fucking tell you
这里不是我家? This is not my house?
但我在这里见过你 对吗? I've seen you here though, right?
也许吧 我去年在这里 Maybe. I was here last year.
我就知道 I knew it.
我想你说过你以前从没来过这里 I thought you said you'd never been here before.
是啊 我又想了一想 No, now that I think about it
那个派对好像是在别处办的 That party was at some other place.
Uh.
你想出去走走吗? You up for a walk?
不想 No.
为什么不? Why not?
我现在就可以杀了你 根本不会有人知道 I could murder you right now, and no one would ever know.
嗯? Hm?
[周三]
怎么 你现在已经住在这儿了? What, do you live here now?
我昨天很晚还听到你在四处乱晃 Heard you walking around super late last night.
好像还在... Sounded like you were...
自言自语 Talking to yourself.
是啊 我确实... Yeah, I was...
-在自言自语 -喂 - I was talking to myself. - Hey.
为什么我要那样做? Why would I be doing that?
你能别挡我的路吗? Can you please get out of my way?
-你拿去喝吧 -不 我不用了 - Yeah, here. - No, I'm good.
我自己去泡 谢谢 I'm just gonna get my own, thank you.
搞什么鬼? 你干什么? What the fuck? What are you doing?
我真不懂你为什么在这里 I don't understand why you're here.
-你又不住在这里 -你有什么问题? - You don't live here. - What's your problem?
我的问题就是我想和我最好的朋友 My problem is that I'm trying to have a nice time
一起过段开心的日子 而你却从头到尾都他妈在这里 With my best friend, and you are just here all the fucking time.
是吉妮请我来这里的 你知道吗? Ginny invited me here, you know?
别叫她吉妮 Don't call her Ginny.
-拿去 -我不要 - Take it. - I don't want it.
我给你泡了一杯咖啡 I made you a cup of coffee.
不 我不要 No, I don't want it.
你... 你他妈是认真的吗? Are you... are you fucking serious?
我的老天啊 Jesus fucking Christ.
你真是个被宠坏的贱人 你知不知道? You are a real fucking spoiled bitch, you know that?
你爸爸是个人物 并不说明你也是 You ain't shit just 'cause of who your father was.
你看到多少? How much of that did you see?
噢 好吧 Oh, well.
操 Fuck.
什么? What?
没什么 我只是在思考 Nothing, I was just thinking.
思考什么? About what?
就是我们的事 Just about us.
我感觉很不舒服 I feel sick.
感觉一团糟 I feel all messed up.
我很抱歉 I'm sorry.
我的脸好痛 一直痛 My face hurts. All the time.
像头痛那样吗? Like a headache?
不 好像... No, it's like...
骨头在皮肤之下相互摩擦 Bones are grinding underneath my skin.
我觉得这不可能 I don't think that's a thing.
让人真的很难集中精神 Just makes it really hard to concentrate.
你一直都没睡 是不是? You haven't been sleeping, have you?
你别带着那种态度比较好 I could do without the attitude.
那种"凯瑟琳疯了"的态度 The whole Catherine-is-crazy attitude.
我没说你疯了 I didn't say you were crazy.
你想过 You thought it.
我的想法不用你来告诉我 Don't tell me what I think.
只不过... It's just...
我知道你带里奇来 I know that you bring Rich around
是为了和他说我的事 So that you can talk to him about me.
世界上不是所有事都关于你 Not everything is about you.
我知道 I know.
真是好极了 It's fascinating.
我感觉我... I feel like I am...
像第一次见到你 Seeing you for the first time.
你什么意思? What do you mean?
我一直认为你如此完美 I always thought you were so perfect.
我认为你对一切都了然于心 I thought you had it all figured out.
但你只是一直置身于男人的包围中 But you are just surrounding yourself with men.
像詹姆斯 还有你父亲 With James, with your father.
他们照顾你 They took care of you.
没有了他们... Without them...
你就成了这样 Here you are.
嗯 Hm.
我想现在对我来说最好的结果 I think the best hope for me now
就是别走上我父亲的老路 Is to not end up like my father.
这怎么说? How's that going?
嗯 Mmm.
这很难说 It's touch and go.
我只是再也感觉不到自己的存在了 I just don't really feel like I exist anymore.
仅有的两个 And the only two people that...
真正关心的我人用各自的方式 Really cared about me abandoned me.
遗弃了我 In one form or another.
我关心你 I care about you.
不 你不关心 No, you don't.
好了 你真的千万不要动 So, you have to hold really still
我要开始画脸部细节了 Because I have to do the features now.
各位 Dudes?
一个问题 Question?
你可以开一辆车 驾驶一架飞机 You drive a car, fly a plane
骑一辆车 Ride a bike
船该用什么动词? What's the analogy for a boat?
也说开啊 You drive it as well.
我不知道啊 凯瑟琳 I don't know, Catherine.
你难道能"开"一条独木舟吗? Can you drive a canoe?
要不说掌控一艘船行吗? Can you steer a boat?
-但你能"掌控"一条独木舟吗? -够了 别再拿独木舟说事了 - Can you steer a canoe? - Enough with the canoe.
除了该死的独木舟你就不能找个别的反例了吗? Can't you find a counterpoint besides a goddamn canoe?
我只是说这是个合理的问题 K It's a valid question is all's I'm saying, 'Kay.
穿好了 Make sure you put that on.
我不想你掉下去溺水 I wouldn't want you falling in and drowning
或者... 发生其他可怕的事 Or... something horrible like that.
准备好了? Ready?
等一下 我还没扣扣子 Hold on, I'm not buttoned.
我猜是准备好了 Ready, I guess.
-我还没... -准备好了吗? - I'm not... - Ready?
还没好 It's not done yet.
-好了吗? -她得扣紧才行 - Ready? - She has to get it snapped.
嘿 K Hey, K.
K? K.
嗨 K Hey, K.
我的名字是C开头的 My name starts with a "C."
-你说真的吗? -嗯 - Are you for real? - Mm-hmm.
我一整年都在叫你K I've been calling you "K" for a whole year.
没错 Yep.
简直太赞了 That's awesome.
没什么赞的 It's not that awesome.
好吧 谢谢你今天在湖上的坦诚 Well, thanks for coming out on the lake today.
非常感谢你邀请我 Thank you very much for inviting me.
是啊 Yeah.
你知道 我琢磨着你也许只是想去个地方 You know, I figured you probably just wanted to be
在那里别人不会问你 Someplace where people weren't talking to you about...
"你过得如何"这样的废话 How you were doing and all that stuff.
可是 你现在在搞什么啊 And yet, look at what you're doing now.
你又不知道我在做什么 You don't know what I'm doing.
你真是让人搞不懂 里奇 You're a real mystery, Rich.
脸又不舒服了? Face thing?
是的 Yeah.
一说话就很痛 It hurts to talk.
突然就这样了? All of a sudden?
时好时坏 Comes and goes.
你知道那听起来有多假吗? You realize how fake that sounds?
你知道这样说听起来有多侮辱人吗? Do you realize how insulting that is?
只不过是想弄明白罢了 Just trying to understand.
不 你在试图妄加评断 No, you're trying to judge.
是啊 我也不知道 我只是感觉不好 Yeah, I don't know, I just don't feel good.
我觉得精神状态很差 I don't feel like myself.
她很好 但你知道的 She's good, but, you know,
她有个男友老在这里打转 She has this guy hanging around
那男的超诡异 And he's super creepy.
我有种不好的感觉 I just get a bad feeling.
我感觉不安全 I don't feel safe.
嗯 是这样 他们今天带我去划船了 Yeah, well, they took me out on a boat today,
简直诡异到极点 Which was really weird.
太蠢了 It was just dumb.
我也很想你 And I miss you, too.
是吗? Yeah?
对不起 我再打给你行吗? I'm sorry. Can I call you back?
好 Okay.
好 拜拜 Okay, bye.
你在和谁讲电话? Who were you talking to?
不关你的事 It's none of your business.
我只是...好奇 I'm just... curious.
我说真的 这不关你的事 Well, I'm serious. It's none of your business.
是詹姆斯吗? Was that James?
不是 No.
凯瑟琳... Catherine...
我知道的 I know.
好吧 你知道的 Okay. You know.
嗨 你住在这附近吗? Hey, do you stay around here?
-我是个客人 -哪里的? - I'm a guest. - Where?
-这里 -不 是这里 但是哪里呢? - Here. - No, here, where, though?
这里 这座房子 你以为我说的是什么? Here, in this house. Wha... what do you think I mean?
等等 等等 等等 我认出你了 Wait, wait, wait. I recognize you.
对不起 在电视上见过 I'm sorry. From TV.
靠 我记得的 对了 是你爸爸 Fuck. I remember, yeah, it was your dad.
他试图敲诈那些人 He tried to rip off all those people.
-不是这样的 -是吗? - That's not what happened. - Right?
不不不不不不不 No, no, no, no, no, no.
但是后来... 你让人觉得 But then... then you had people thinking
你知道那些钱的下落 That you knew where the money was.
不 不是这样的 No, that's not what happened.
你很显然不认识我 You obviously don't know me.
你认识Frank和Sylvie很久了吗? So, have you known Frank and Sylvie long?
我认识他们有... I've known them for...
天啊 我记不得了 从我小时候就认识 Oh, God, I don't know, since I was a kid.
是啊 Yeah.
大概是20... 不 差不多18年前 It was 20... No, like 18 years.
你知道 我从来没有相信过 You know, I never believed
别人关于他们的说辞 Anything that anyone said about them.
甚至人们站出来作证之后 Even after people came forward and testified
我总是说"不是 绝对不可能" I was always like, "No, absolutely not."
没什么诡异的 没什么奇怪的 Nothing weird, nothing strange.
你还好吗? Are you okay?
老天爷啊 她这到底是怎么搞的? Jesus Christ, what the fuck is wrong with her?
你还好吗? You alright?
凯瑟琳... Catherine...
这是Warlock This is Warlock...
这是Dragon And Dragon.
不 不! No. No!
不! No!
啊! 不! 不! Ah! No! No!
不! No!
别碰我! Leave me alone!
不! 别碰我! No! Leave me alone!
别碰我! Leave me alone!
不! No!
可没人教过我该这样离开一个派对 Well, that's not how I was taught to leave a party.
我有权表达我的观点 I'm allowed to express my my opinions.
你当然可以 Of course you are.
但你同样也被允许冷静一点 But you're also allowed to take it down a notch.
恶 我讨厌你这么说 Ugh, I hate it when you say that.
今天的日程表上有什么? What's on the agenda for today?
散步? A walk?
我想去游泳 I was thinking a swim.
想去游泳吗 甜心? Wanna go for a swim, sweetheart?
什么? What?
游泳? Swim?
你想去游泳吗? You wanna go for a swim?
游泳吗? Swim?
噢 我不知道 也许下次吧 Oh, I don't know. Uh, maybe another time.
你慢慢来 Take your time.
慢慢来 My time.
我会慢慢来的 I'll take my time.
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我没想到有人现在会起来 I didn't expect anybody to be up.
是啊 我也没有 Yeah, me neither.
我只想告诉你我并不是对你 I just wanted to tell you that I wasn't interested in you
或你昨晚的什么行为感兴趣 Or anything about you last night.
好吧 Okay.
我根本就不认识这些人 I don't even really know these people.
我朋友在附近租了一幢房子 My friends are renting a house nearby.
是啊 我也不认识他们 Yeah, I don't really know them either.
你怎么会到这里来的? How did you end up here?
噢 我想 嗯... Oh, I guess, um...
我是... 我是这家侄女的朋友 I'm... I'm friends with the niece.
谢谢 Thanks.
世界可真小啊 Small world.
越来越小了 Increasingly.
所以你父亲是吉妮父亲的朋友? So your father was friends with Ginny's father?
我以为你不想问的? I thought you didn't wanna ask?
只是随便聊聊嘛 We're just talking here.
是吗? Are we?
搞什么? What the fuck?
凯瑟琳! 你搞什么! Catherine! Shit!
该死的! 操 操 操! Damn it! Fuck, fuck, fuck!
你的脸还好吗? Is your face okay?
没事 Fine.
又复发了吗? Is it acting up again?
嗯 Mm-mm.
喝酒让它好一点还是更糟了? Does drinking make it better or worse?
-好点 一般是这样 -嗯 - Better. Usually. - Hm.
你看过医生了? You seen a doctor?
嗯 我看过好几个 Mm-hmm. I've seen a bunch of them.
看过皮肤科 牙科 I've seen dermatologists, I've seen a dentist,
耳鼻喉科 And I've seen an ENT.
照过X光 做过核磁共振 I've had X-rays and MRls...
然后呢? And?
没什么问题 Nothing.
我听着像是心理作用 Sounds psychosomatic to me.
你说什么? Excuse me?
我就是说说 你想... I'm just saying, like...
六七个医生都告诉你... Half a dozen doctors tell you that...
十几个 至少 A dozen, at least.
如果一大群该死的医生都告诉你 If a fuck load of doctors tells you
你没得病 That there's nothing wrong with you,
你还能得到其他什么结论吗? Then what other conclusion can you possibly reach?
我不知道 里奇 I don't know, Rich.
也许他们都错了 Maybe that they're wrong.
那你比医生还懂得多 You know more than the doctors.
嗯 Hm-mm.
维吉妮娅的画像怎么样了? How's Virginia's portrait coming along?
里奇 别说了 Rich, cut it out.
怎么了? 我很好奇啊 What? I'm curious.
你说过你们正在做这事 You say you've been working on it.
我等不及想看看了 I can't wait to see it.
你他妈有什么问题? What is your fucking problem?
想想看有多少媒体会来报导你... Just think of all the press you're gonna get...
诞生于悲剧中的杰出画作 Emerging from tragedy with such an accomplished canvas.
肯定会很轰动的 It's really going to be quite an event.
你竟敢这么说? How dare you?
你算什么东西 有什么资格这样对我说话? Who the hell are you to come in and speak to me that way?
我根本不认识你 I don't even know you.
你凭什么这样跟我说话? How dare you speak to me like that?
你这该死的禽兽 You fucking animal.
你这不知廉耻的人渣 You unrepentant piece of shit.
你对别人的事情评头论足还洋洋自得 You click your tongue and you revel in the affairs of others.
简直一文不值 You are worthless.
你对我没有一点点了解 You don't know anything about me.
你就这么出现 睡了我最好的朋友 You show up to fuck my best friend,
大刺刺地窥探起别人的生活 And you pry into the lives of others
好掩藏你自己的人生 To conceal how worthless
实际上是多么一无是处 无聊至极 And boring your own life is.
我不该被这样对待 I don't deserve this.
我只想一个人待着 I just want to be left alone.
我只想一个人和世界上 I want to be left alone with the few people
剩下为数不多的体面人在一起待着 Who are left in this world who are decent.
你软弱又贪婪 You are weak and greedy
自私自利 And selfish.
所有问题的根源都是你 And you are the root of every problem.
你... You...
就是人们相互背叛的原因 Are why people betray one another.
你是世界上再无安全之所 You are why there is nowhere safe
幸福之地的原因 Or happy anymore.
你是抑郁存在的原因 You are why depression exists.
你是人们无法逃离 You are why there is no escape
低俗下流和流言蜚语 From indecency and gossip...
还有谎言的原因 And lies.
你 里奇... You, Rich...
你是我父亲不得不死的原因 You are why my father had to die.
因为他无法生活在这样的一个世界里 Because he couldn't live in a world like this.
我一直在想你是不是还回来... Was wondering if or...
或着什么时候才会回来 When you'd be back here.
这本该是我的假期 This was supposed to be my vacation.
噢! 真抱歉我把它毁了 Ohh! Sorry if I ruined that.
你为什么不喜欢我? Why don't you like me?
我是说真的 到底为什么? You know, I mean, I mean, really?
你是个有钱又被惯坏的贱人 You are a rich, spoiled brat.
你在一个肥皂泡里长大 You grew up in a bubble
肥皂泡一旦破裂 And when that bubble popped,
你又指望所有人都围绕在你身边 对你施以同情 You expected everybody to be around and feel sorry for you.
我觉得我只是想要一个人待着 I thought I just wanted to be left alone.
不 你不想 No. You didn't.
你想要在人前现眼 You wanted to make a spectacle of yourself.
-嗯 -没错 - Yeah. - Yeah.
但你根本没有真正地了解我 But you don't really know me.
我没有吗? Don't I?
你去年就是个傲慢无礼的混蛋 You were a stuck-up brat last year
这个傲慢无礼的混蛋 And... you're a stuck-up brat
今年也还是老样子 This year, too.
所以 So...
你永远也成不了你父亲 You will never be your father.
你知不知道? You know that?
你永远也不会成为他 You were never going to be.
实际上 我很确信 In fact, I'm convinced
如果你和他没有血缘关系 If you weren't related to him...
你们也许根本不会是同一个世界的人 You probably wouldn't have gotten close to him.
Cat? Cat?
你在做什么? What are you doing?
停下 住手 Stop. Stop it.
好的 好了 Cat Okay. Alright. Cat.
停下 Stop it.
你在做什么? What are you doing?
噢 噢 里奇 我可真抱歉 Oh. Oh, Rich, I'm sorry.
对不起了 里奇 I'm sorry, Rich.
吉妮? Ginny?
吉妮 我很抱歉 Ginny, I'm sorry.
我真的很抱歉 I'm really sorry.
吉妮 我很抱歉 Ginny, I'm sorry.
我真的很抱歉 I'm really sorry.
噢 我把事情弄得一团乱 Oh, I made a mess.
噢 我真是弄得一团乱 我很抱歉 Oh, I really made a mess. I'm sorry.
对不起 I'm sorry.
请你别... Please don't...
请你别生我的气 Please don't be mad at me.
别离开我 好吗? Just don't leave me, okay?
吉妮. Ginny.
我保证我会好起来 I promise I'll get better.
我保证 I promise.
我保证我会好起来的 I promise I'll get better.
好了 Okay.
你不会离开我吧? You're not gonna leave me?
准备好出发了吗? Ready to go?
没有 No.
真希望我永远也不用走 Wish I never had to.
我很高兴我们还能和好 I'm glad that I got to make it up here.
我很抱歉 如果... And I'm sorry if...
因为我带那个人来而让一切不愉快 他叫什么来着? I ruined it by bringing, you know, what's his name?
我不记得了 I don't remember.
明年还是这个时候? Same time next year?
没问题 No question.
你会没事的 You're gonna be okay.
谢谢 Thanks.
你也是 You too.
我知道你这段日子过得很艰难 I know you've been going through a hard time,
我... 只想和你说声抱歉 And... I just wanted to apologize
如果我不曾真正在你身边支持你 If I really wasn't there for you.
这个... Well...
也许某天你也会经历这样糟糕的一切 Maybe someday you'll be going through this shit
那时我也不会支持你 这样我们就扯平了 And I won't be there for you, and then well be even.
天啊 我真希望是这样 God, I hope so.
好吧 Alright.
-不要 -要 - No. - Yeah.
时间已经到了 The time has come.
过来 Come here.
好了 你现在该让我走了 Okay, gotta let me go now.
嗯 我不让你走 Mm-mm. I'm not letting you go.
好了 你得让我走 Yep, gotta do it.
我不想 Don't want to.
好了 我都感觉不自在了 Come on. I feel uncomfortable.
-好吧 再见 -再见 Okay, bye. Bye.
-回头见 -嗯 - See you soon. - Mm-hm.
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